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3 Qualities in Me that I want to dump

#1 People pleasing

I’m a huge people-pleaser. I want everyone to like me, to say good things about me and not misinterpret my intentions towards them.

And while this external validation is causing me more harm than good, not to mention depleting my energy reserves, I still do it because I just don’t want people to have an image of me that is untrue.

And even when I know that I cannot make people see me, the way I see me, I still do it, most times out of unconscious habit. So yes, this is one major quality I want to dump.

#2 Hesitating

There are many times I wanted to do something or say something and in that split moment, I hesitated and that opportunity was lost to me forever.

All these moments have accumulated as regrets of my past. I don’t want to add more regrets, because the weight of it is too heavy and still hinders my healing process.

So, I want to not hesitate and really think upon it before replying or doing something, and then I hope I still find the courage to do what I want.

#3 Complaining

I’m a glass-half-empty-person. Maybe because of the environment in which I grew up, where everyone would point out my faults, I grew up to see what I lack in my life instead of what I’m blessed with.

I grumble and complain about atleast something in a day. And it is only fuelling my irritation and in turn my storm clouds. I want to give up on this too.

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I Understand What You Are Going Through

I believe that we can truly understand what someone else is going through only if we have gone through it ourselves.

For the past year, I have been dealing with some issues. And every time things don’t work out, I feel very angry and hurt. My family say to me that they understand what I feel. And whenever they say that, I just feel like screaming aloud in thier faces. But I don’t, bcoz one part of me knows that they are coming from a place of concern and they are saying what they think is the right thing to say to me in my crumpled motionless state.

But you can really understand what someone is feeling only when you have felt it too. Reading about it, hearing about it, watching someone struggle with it, is not the same as experiencing it first-hand.