Learning to Let Go

Why is Letting Go so hard for me?

Because I have spent considerable amount of energy on wanting something, preparing for it, trying with all my might to achieve it, only to have been denied it. With so much history into it, it is hard to let go.

Also, the uncertain future is no solace. There seems to be no fixed date for when the lows will end and highs will begin.

And the fear of abandonment and loneliness makes me so afraid that I would rather bear the burden of not letting go.

I am slowly learning to open up my closed wrist and let the grains of regret tumble away.

Strategy in use:

Step 1: Out of mind is out of life. Trying not to think about how much desparately I want things to work out.

Step 2: Stop chasing after it.

Step 3: Go with the flow and know that my time will come too.

Seasons of Life.

The Bhagvad Gita says, instead of viewing our life being in the good days or being in the bad days, we must try to look at it like the seasons of the year. Every year we have Summer followed by Autumn, then Winter, then Spring and then Summer again.

If we could relate this to our lives, we could notice that in our life too, there are seasons.

The Summer season when we are living the dream, achieving goals we want to achieve and basically everything goes about without much glitch because we are so confident and sure about it.

And just as seasons shift, the Summer phase gets over too someday. We find ourselves on the brink of change. Some people embrace change whole heartedly. But if you are like me, you may be wary and resistant to change.

And then Autumn follows. This is where I am stuck right now. I know I need to make peace with my circumstances and enjoy the little light left before it fades, but I am stuck not knowing where to begin and how to proceed. I have no plan. Though I wish I could change things, I also find myself unable to bring about the change.

From Autumn, we move into Winter. This is the season when things become very difficult to handle and you feel cold and miserable and afraid of taking all the decisions that you need to take to accept the new chapter in your life.

And then comes Spring, when you are finally tentatively stepping outside, trying, and learning new stuff, taking decisions, taking life one step at a time.

And then we are back in Summer, living our best life!! But it’s also important here to not repeat the mistakes of the previous seasons and to prepare for new changes more gracefully!! So that next time when Winter comes, we don’t feel shut and bolted but cozy and relaxed and looking ahead to new a Spring!!

Setting an Intention for 2023

I am past New Year Resolutions and Goals.

Even if I make a resolution and pick a habit and do it consistently for 30 days or more, it ends up becoming a routine and I get bored.

If I keep a goal, I obsess a lot over why I am not achieving that goal. I burn myself out trying too hard enough.

This year I am trying something different – Setting an Intention. My Intention for 2023 is: “Have Faith“.

To accept that where I am right now in my life, it is the correct place for me to be in. To choose consciously to live in the present. And to leave all that is not in my control to the above and beyond.