Expectations and Hopes

We generally expect a little bit of good from every day. I mean, at least, we hope the day to be good. This hope leads to expectations and expectations lead to great disappointments.

So never hope that something good will cross your way. Bcoz ‘goodness’ is a very rare entity in today’s times. Just stay neutral and let your days flow. If something good does turn up then let it be a pleasant surprise. 

My funda is that instead of expecting something and then being disappointed, it’s better to not expect anything or expect the worst and be surprised with the best. 

Because disappointment wilts me down in a deep dark tunnel of the most depressing thoughts and I find it difficult to fight it and come to the surface. Whereas pleasant surprises, they leave me in a good mood for days. 

The only problem right now is the wait – the wait for the good to come – that is testing me. 

  

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​Scribed #3

 Her phone beeped. Half immersed in her workload, she glanced up quickly at the screen of her smartphone. A tiny blue light was flashing at the base of it. 

Distracted from what she was doing, she continued to gaze at the blue dot. 

An incoming message!! 

It sent a thrill through her. Who could have sent that text? 

What if it was from the person that she was expecting it to be? A smile started tracing itself on her lips. That would be pleasant. She hadn’t heard from them in a while and she had almost started worrying herself wondering why. 

Well, there was one easy way to find out – pick up the phone!!

But then – what if it wasn’t from them? That would only disappoint her further. She hated getting excited anticipating only to get irritated to see someone else’s name displayed on the screen. 

It’s not like she wanted to ignore others if they texted. It’s just that, she was just expecting that particular text. 

She eyed the phone now, her fingertips hovering inches away from the screen, itching to pick it up and check her messages. 

But she had work to be completed. She had to act a little professional, shouldn’t she? 

She tore her eyes away from the flickering blue dot. 

Surely they would understand, surely they would wait.. 

But what if this one wait became the one that was too long to take? 

About Trust 

Trust is a fragile thing. Almost like a crystal glass. U have to handle it with utmost care bcoz if it slips and breaks, the damage hurts physically.

Be utmost sure whom to trust they say. But I trust easily, almost blindly. I trust the person I met two minutes ago, bcoz I think c’mon what reason would that person have to harm me?

Unfortunately I believe in giving too many second chances, I never seem to learn from those particular past mistakes. I feel guilty when I wrong someone and I will then try to make up to them in whatever way I can. But haan, that’s not the vice versa case.

Promises to me are very important. I build my trust with it. But a promise is become as light a word as sorry these days. People dont mean it , they just say it.

As a kid I would always look forward to the things that my parents promised me. But then they used to just say it to appease me. They never meant to do anything. When I pointed out why they built a false expectation in me, the answer was, ” it’s not a big deal, why are u still grudging over it? ”

But it was important to me. It’s always important to me that you do what you say you will do.

But I still continue to trust and hope like a fool. Silly me!!