​Scribed #3

 Her phone beeped. Half immersed in her workload, she glanced up quickly at the screen of her smartphone. A tiny blue light was flashing at the base of it. 

Distracted from what she was doing, she continued to gaze at the blue dot. 

An incoming message!! 

It sent a thrill through her. Who could have sent that text? 

What if it was from the person that she was expecting it to be? A smile started tracing itself on her lips. That would be pleasant. She hadn’t heard from them in a while and she had almost started worrying herself wondering why. 

Well, there was one easy way to find out – pick up the phone!!

But then – what if it wasn’t from them? That would only disappoint her further. She hated getting excited anticipating only to get irritated to see someone else’s name displayed on the screen. 

It’s not like she wanted to ignore others if they texted. It’s just that, she was just expecting that particulartext. 

She eyed the phone now, her fingertips hovering inches away from the screen, itching to pick it up and check her messages. 

But she had work to be completed. She had to act a little professional, shouldn’t she? 

She tore her eyes away from the flickering blue dot. 

Surely they would understand, surely they would wait.. 

But what if this one wait became the one that was too long to take? 

About Trust 

Trust is a fragile thing. Almost like a crystal glass. U have to handle it with utmost care bcoz if it slips and breaks, the damage hurts physically.

Be utmost sure whom to trust they say. But I trust easily, almost blindly. I trust the person I met two minutes ago, bcoz I think c’mon what reason would that person have to harm me?

Unfortunately I believe in giving too many second chances, I never seem to learn from those particular past mistakes. I feel guilty when I wrong someone and I will then try to make up to them in whatever way I can. But haan, that’s not the vice versa case.

Promises to me are very important. I build my trust with it. But a promise is become as light a word as sorry these days. People dont mean it , they just say it.

As a kid I would always look forward to the things that my parents promised me. But then they used to just say it to appease me. They never meant to do anything. When I pointed out why they built a false expectation in me, the answer was, ” it’s not a big deal, why are u still grudging over it? ”

But it was important to me. It’s always important to me that you do what you say you will do.

But I still continue to trust and hope like a fool. Silly me!!

​Don’t Give More Than What You Can

Helping is become a thankless job these days.
People assume u do it bcoz u have plenty of time to spare. They do not understand that u do so by removing time out for them. And when u always help anytime without complaining, they assume u r okay with it and more so expect u to help every time. And if u say no someday , they give u those accusing stares. As if ur contract bound to help.

If its in ur nature to help someone, I would say do it but not so often that the other person starts relieng on u. U r supposed to help, not do their work for them.

I dont know how some people manage to help but at the same time subtly convey to u that – ok, I have helped today, but I wont repeat the same thing tomorrow and I certainly wont do all of ur job for u or clean up after u.

Its really , funny or what I dunno, but the one time u say No to helping somebody , they forget all the times when u helped them previously n hold this one grudge against u. U never get acknowledged for ur help but those who skip their job are covered by excuses.

I have to really learn to say No. A firm NO.