It’s just so hard to keep faith and believe that things will work out when my hope keeps decreasing day by day.

I want to be better and I’m trying to be better. But it feels like, the more I’m trying, the more I’m messing up and it’s becoming more and more likely that I will never get what I want from my life.

Every time I fail, I start over. Every Monday, every first day of a month, the day after each festival. It all however ends in the same way – me, struggling to keep going on and me convincing myself to dig up a little bit more hope.

Somedays, it’s so hard, I just feel like throwing in the towel and walking away from everyone.

How can I find faith on such days? How can I believe that the future is better? How can I be sure that all my efforts are not just going to waste…

How can I not be afraid?