life · Thoughts

Forgive Yourself

During one of my sessions, when I was lamenting about certain incidents from my past and expressing an opinion that maybe I could have done this in a different way at that time, my therapist said something that resonated with me.

She said that it isn’t correct to be in the present day and say that I wish I could have done things differently in the past or wish I had that courage back then because in present time, I am not the person who I was on that day. Today, I have new information, more experience and hence I am able to look at the situation differently.

Back then I didn’t have the experience or the knowledge and I was driven by fear of the unknown and hence whatever decision my younger self had taken was the best decision she could take at that time of point.

There is no need to be ashamed of or be embarrassed of what I have done in my past. It was neither right nor wrong. It was just what I could do to cope and survive. So, I forgive myself and I do not hold any grudge or hate towards myself. I will continue to learn to love myself and pick my self up on bad days.

Love · Thoughts

What is Love?

Love.

What does it mean?

This word gets used around a lot and often as casually as saying, “Oh my God, I love this dress” and “I love pizza.”

And just like when we find a more better looking dress, we go from our old favorite to the new ‘organically’, people say stuff like, “I don’t love you anymore, now.”

And with the pizza analogy, that minute they are in love with someone and they love absolutely everything about them and the next day they groan about how the pizza is ruining them.

I have stopped believing in the classic love line now. We may say we love someone but if we don’t reflect that in our actions, it means nothing.

I would rather prefer helping others, supporting and respecting each other’s decisions and caring.

That is true love for me.

Interests

If I had Tattoos

I was attempting to draw Mehendi on my hands and thinking about how it is such a painless way for temporary tattoos.

I am really scared of needles and I don’t think I will ever be able to get myself a real tattoo.

So… But.. If…

I ever have tattoos, I have three ideas in mind!

1) The Semicolon on Wrist

I have always liked this tattoo and particularly after I found out it’s meaning (my story isn’t over yet). It would be the kind of tattoo that would push me during my storm clouds.

2) The Cat Paw

My pets would vouch for this one! I would a love two big haughty paws somewhere above my feet, very much in visible range when I walk.

3) A Neck Tattoo

I haven’t really thought what this would be but it’s going to be on the nape of my neck. I want it to be something pretty and romantic – no, not the #couple goals kind of romantic – something that speaks of my romantic beliefs of life.

Ah, a girl can dream πŸ˜‡