It’s either everything at once or nothing at all!
My graph just starts great and then bang! drops without any prior warning. And when it drops, it drops so low that I can’t pick myself up again.
It’s either a swarm of people around me all trying to talk together at the same time or it’s no one at all nearby when I need to reach out.
It’s either a weekend chalked full of plans or a weekend at home tucked under the blanket.
And it’s in these moments when I’m truly alone that I want someone, anyone, to reach out to me and tell me that I matter. That they want me to crawl out from under that blanket and talk to them. That they want to actually sit next to me and spend some time with me.
Bcoz when I’m are a part of the crowd, I feel like my presence or absence here wouldn’t have made much of a difference to anyone there anyway. The party never stops. So if I withdraw myself away I wouldn’t be missed. Nobody is actually going to come looking for me.
And I’ll just be waiting for I don’t know what.