What do u think about? 

I think. I think a lot. 

Like if I have to go into office today and face a scenario, I will think of all the best and worst possibilities that can occur. 

I also think a lot about the future. About what it may be like. A part of me wants to know what will happen and put my mind to rest. The other part wants to treat the uncertainty like a surprise. 

Whenever I read a book or watch something, I become involved with the characters. Their story becomes mine. Their happiness makes me happy, their pain brings tears to my eyes and their resentment feels me with desperation. 

I like to pretend these fiction worlds exist. A world where I could have superpowers perhaps or some supernatural strength. 

I used to people watch and assign them background stories. Sometimes when people react in a certain way, I think about what they must be thinking or feeling at that point. I know it’s none of my business but I can’t help feeling curious. 

My mind can’t stop whirring thoughts. If it really were an Inside Out movie in my mind, I can imagine shelves with thoughts mounting high like a cathedral of thoughts. 

Yes, I think. I think a lot. 

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​Is it Okay?

Okay. To me, the way a person types okay really matters bcoz I interpret each okay to mean different. I’m sure u may have meant different but I see it different.

This is what each okay means to me😜

Okay – Everything is cool between us. 

Okayyy – literally means Yeayy, I’m really excited about it. 

Ohkay – I didn’t really understand u but it’s alright. 

Ok – Neutral 

Hmmm ok – My mood is bordering on impatience but I’m trying to stay polite. 

K – I hate people who respond like that. Esp if I send u dozens of text and u reply back with a single alphabet, I’m so going to murder u!!

K. – The rudest people ever reply with a K and a full stop. 

Ok 😊 – U really hated the idea didnt u? But u wanted to appear all for it so u added a smiley

Okie – I hate that, I hate that, I hate that word. It’s like all the Yo, Yup, Cool jargon and I don’t like such words. 

Okkkk – U want to quickly dismiss the subject. 

Oh, okay – U just realized u had got it wrong so far and u just got what I was actually talking about. 

A 👍instead of an Okay – Hmm, r u really so lazy or not bothered or busy(which I doubt) that u can’t reply with a simple okay? 

O. K. – U used autopredict instead of typing it, hai naa
So okay, we can agree to disagree on this, that’s fine by me😁

Expectations and Hopes

We generally expect a little bit of good from every day. I mean, at least, we hope the day to be good. This hope leads to expectations and expectations lead to great disappointments.

So never hope that something good will cross your way. Bcoz ‘goodness’ is a very rare entity in today’s times. Just stay neutral and let your days flow. If something good does turn up then let it be a pleasant surprise. 

My funda is that instead of expecting something and then being disappointed, it’s better to not expect anything or expect the worst and be surprised with the best. 

Because disappointment wilts me down in a deep dark tunnel of the most depressing thoughts and I find it difficult to fight it and come to the surface. Whereas pleasant surprises, they leave me in a good mood for days. 

The only problem right now is the wait – the wait for the good to come – that is testing me.